vanilla05's Xanga

Back to School?

Tue, 26 May 2009 14:08:55 GMT

Life as an Engineer in the past one and half year is not good. People called engineers with good analytical skills and very logical. We were trained to be expert in alot of things but never to be appreciated by the outside world or is it just in Singapore? We worked and sweat and i mean really dripping with our brains and having the responisibilities to make alot of decisions. What was worse is that whenever a wrong decision is made by a YOUNG engineer, we were being guided into the right path but only to get fuck up, down, left , right, centre.

Meeting has never been enjoyable. It is always so stressful on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. With having to work on Saturday to get further demoralised. My dear friend is going to leave the workplace, follow by another one in July.

Life is going to get real bad and mixed feelings surfaced every now and then. On the other hand, am thinking about going to do my masters. It is good that it is only to take a year but the fee is a killing factor. Haiz...life...

MOOD IS DOWN...feeling blue

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 12:35:30 GMT

Just updated my facebook with all the past videos during my 3 yrs in NTU. Other than the exams, i realised i had a fair bit of fun back then. Work life has been getting busier each and everyday. Really missed the hall life with all my buddies...

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 12:37:00 GMT

First entry in 2009. Not sure if i want to carry on blogging. Am going through some songs someone burnt for me a few years ago. Songs such as xiang jian tai wan really has it's meanings. I believed it's true and if only if it's earlier, things would have been different. Till date, Romeo and Juliet has brought blissful memories yet sad ones too.

The whole CD brought back memories i once shared with someone but yet a wrecking on too. I decided to collapse the bad ones and left the good ones. Looking back at the songs played one by one actually reminded me the different chapters of that period in a flashed back.

Now that everyone has move on with individual lives, i just hope to keep those wonderful and blissful memories. Perhaps next life, there will not be another xiang jian tai wan.

For peeps who are wondering how i am after missing for so long. All i can say is that i have move on to another new job and one with a lower pay and needs more commitment. Yes, i am crazy...but im much happier now. Everyday seems so tiring and stressful in a shipyard. By the end of the day, at least i can pat on my shoulder and tell myself "well done"....

Blessing or Disaster???

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 03:31:59 GMT

Life at work is not excellent but surviving. There are ups and downs during these 4 months. A matter of fact, i have not decided to stay or to leave. My manager has decided to leave for a paradise. As for the rest of the team, we will soon down to 3. What will i have to do?

Recently found an ex breaking off with the bf. What can i say? The only thing i can say is to just lend her my listening ears. Hopefully by telling me her plight will make her feel better. "Anything bad that happen to will affect me as well. Don't like to see you unhappy".

Back to my work life. Been thinking what i like recently after my first job. I realised im a no no guy to deskbound job. I enjoy coordinating with others and working things work. Outdoor jobs in the yard has been wonderful. i get to be dirty, perspire and runnng about. But as my job nature requires me to do programming no doubt it is my favourite language, i still hate it being deskbound.

Other than that, i got a pay raise which is good to alot of people but this will only make me getting a difficult conclusion. Alott of my peers are telling me not to leave. "where can u get such offer outside?" but in the eyes of the management, there must definitely a reason for doing this. Is it for our good or are they already gaining for making such a decision? That's for my own analysis and i believed i had some answers to that.

I need to be outdoor. I hate deskbound and not given an opportunity to get dirty and not able to perspire is unhealthy. haha...

ALVAIN IS DEMORALISED

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 12:19:19 GMT

Is my luck going down? Where is the motivation i used to have? Now that i am here, why did i lose it though? How can i find that lost motivation?

Monday, July 28, 2008

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 13:03:21 GMT

Getting ready for the finally to come day. After a month or more boring days in the office, i am finally scheduled to start the oil drilling business tomorrow. Collected my so white overall and all the safety apparatus. It is a day i have been waiting for so long. yoo...hoo...

I AM STILL ALIVE...HAHAHA...

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 13:53:27 GMT

ALright peeps...i am still alive. Alot of my friends are saying that i am missing. Back to them...I am still alive and kicking. Well, i am not blogging alot because i have already started work.

The next question: No, i can't bring back barrels of crude oil to sell to you guys. i am just an engineer in the oil and gas sector and yes i do drill the oil from the sea but sorry about selling. I hope i can but i can't.

Next, i have been busy learning the programming standards and learning some new platform. By the time i reached home, i am always tired and will fall asleep soon to prepare nyself for the next battle. Don't ask me about my pay and allowances please. It's private and confidential. Just to give you guys a big hint. I plan to throw a big banquet in 2 yrs time. But don't get mix up. When the money world is down, everything gets cheap.

Well...that's all for you guys. So sorry to calls which i did not pick up from friends. I will appreciate if you guys can leave me a sms if i missed your calls. Thank you.

Time to find zzzzz...monster now...

MIRACLES

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 03:32:42 GMT

oh ya..i forgot to mention something. I finally found faith in religion. i realised that no matter how much bad doings one had gone through, the one on top will always welcome the sinned if he or she is willing to repent. Only those who have always curse and swear and do not have faith in whatever they are doing will get the so call...u know what.

Therefore, it is important to realised that a mistake has been made and punishment has been received. the rest of the road is to be stream into faith and the wake to repent. Do it before and not ever again.

ENIGINEERING VS BUSINESS

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 03:25:25 GMT

Dear peers,

i have done a recent research and this is what i deduce as an engineer's point of view. haha... We all have heard about engineers getting a higher start off pay when we step out into the society. But this is ONLY true if you are working in those government linked bodies. Say if you are working in a SME or in private sector, the pay will not be that high. It is almost similar to what business grads are getting in the banks. Spend a few seconds now to think if engineers will earn lesser than the business grads in a long run like what others always mention? I believe the answer is no. Why? What's the most problem with the salary increment when you work for a g********t l****d agency?

You guys are smart. Make the analytical assumptions based on facts and myths.

(NOTE: the above paragraph is only based on the author's personal assumptions and conversations with friends.)

Finally Graduated

Wed, 07 May 2008 18:29:51 GMT

Life in NTU has finally ended after these 3 long years. Exams are over and fyp presentation is also over. Many things have happened since my poly days till today. I did many wrong doings in the past but it's difficult to change to a better man and it is equally difficult to seek for forgiveness. Things have happened at home and i am starting to wonder is it due to retribution. Anyway, things are done and cannot be undone. I will try to be a good man and hope that time will allow me to prove it. I really am...

This is my last week in hall of residence 13 and memories came flashing back for these 3 years. Not knowing if it is a sense of loss or a sense of something else. Life in NTU is bad and the good thing is, good friends were made and fun remained as a beautiful memory. Now that i am starting to move things back home, i suddenly felt reluctant to move this place. It is the end in NTU and the beginning of a new phase in my life. I've lost plenty of time to get things right and hopefully i will be able to move faster than time in the upcoming infinity number of years ahead.

As promised to my mum, the mother day this year will be a presentless one but the only present i can present to her is keeping my promise and it's finally achieve.