Back to School?

Life as an Engineer in the past one and half year is not good. People called engineers with good analytical skills and very logical. We were trained to be expert in alot of things but never to be appreciated by the outside world or is it just in Singapore? We worked and sweat and i mean really dripping with our brains and having the responisibilities to make alot of decisions. What was worse is that whenever a wrong decision is made by a YOUNG engineer, we were being guided into the right path but only to get fuck up, down, left , right, centre.

Meeting has never been enjoyable. It is always so stressful on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. With having to work on Saturday to get further demoralised. My dear friend is going to leave the workplace, follow by another one in July.

Life is going to get real bad and mixed feelings surfaced every now and then. On the other hand, am thinking about going to do my masters. It is good that it is only to take a year but the fee is a killing factor. Haiz...life...

MOOD IS DOWN...feeling blue

First entry in 2009. Not sure if i want to carry on blogging. Am going through some songs someone burnt for me a few years ago. Songs such as xiang jian tai wan really has it's meanings. I believed it's true and if only if it's earlier, things would have been different. Till date, Romeo and Juliet has brought blissful memories yet sad ones too.

The whole CD brought back memories i once shared with someone but yet a wrecking on too. I decided to collapse the bad ones and left the good ones. Looking back at the songs played one by one actually reminded me the different chapters of that period in a flashed back.

Now that everyone has move on with individual lives, i just hope to keep those wonderful and blissful memories. Perhaps next life, there will not be another xiang jian tai wan.

For peeps who are wondering how i am after missing for so long. All i can say is that i have move on to another new job and one with a lower pay and needs more commitment. Yes, i am crazy...but im much happier now. Everyday seems so tiring and stressful in a shipyard. By the end of the day, at least i can pat on my shoulder and tell myself "well done"....

Blessing or Disaster???

Life at work is not excellent but surviving. There are ups and downs during these 4 months. A matter of fact, i have not decided to stay or to leave. My manager has decided to leave for a paradise. As for the rest of the team, we will soon down to 3. What will i have to do?

Recently found an ex breaking off with the bf. What can i say? The only thing i can say is to just lend her my listening ears. Hopefully by telling me her plight will make her feel better. "Anything bad that happen to will affect me as well. Don't like to see you unhappy".

Back to my work life. Been thinking what i like recently after my first job. I realised im a no no guy to deskbound job. I enjoy coordinating with others and working things work. Outdoor jobs in the yard has been wonderful. i get to be dirty, perspire and runnng about. But as my job nature requires me to do programming no doubt it is my favourite language, i still hate it being deskbound.

Other than that, i got a pay raise which is good to alot of people but this will only make me getting a difficult conclusion. Alott of my peers are telling me not to leave. "where can u get such offer outside?" but in the eyes of the management, there must definitely a reason for doing this. Is it for our good or are they already gaining for making such a decision? That's for my own analysis and i believed i had some answers to that.

I need to be outdoor. I hate deskbound and not given an opportunity to get dirty and not able to perspire is unhealthy. haha...

ALVAIN IS DEMORALISED

Is my luck going down? Where is the motivation i used to have? Now that i am here, why did i lose it though? How can i find that lost motivation?